I tried to kill myself twice - now my Bentley is helping save lives
On World Mental Health Day, Michael Turlin tells Sky News how he is helping others open up via an unusual method - his Bentley.
Thursday 10 October 2019 20:57, UK
Michael Turlin tried to end his own life twice in August 2009 after dealing with the loss of his job, the breakdown of his marriage and the deaths of his mother and best friend 鈥� all within three months.
Now on World Mental Health Day, the 60-year-old from Basingstoke tells Sky News how he is helping others overcome their struggles through an unusual method - his Bentley car.
Ten years ago I was in a very dark place.
My best mate had died, my mum had died, I had separated from my wife and I had lost my job - all within a matter of a few months.
Dealing with all of these things didn't help my mental health.
My best friend was the only person I could talk to about anything. We'd known each other for more than 20 years and we were really close.
In May or June 2009, I was left in shock after he died suddenly.
A month later, my mum Mary passed away. She had been suffering from dementia and had a fatal stroke.
It was around this time that I was made redundant from my job as a project manager on a construction site.
As I struggled to deal my worsening mental health issues, my marriage broke down.
I woke up one morning and said to my wife: "I'm leaving." I had been saying to her for weeks: "There's something not right with me." I knew there was something wrong.
I was in such a low place that I looked at ending my life.
I was in a terribly lonely place. I would sit in my empty apartment and have all this weird stuff going around in my head.
The first time I took an overdose but it didn't work. The second attempt also failed and I was admitted to a mental hospital where I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder.
I was given medication but it was only when I came out of hospital that I was able to turn my life around.
I got a job at the company I used to work for and took up jive and salsa dancing. I then got remarried in 2014 and life only got better from there onward.
But it was the purchase of a car that really helped me change the lives of others.
After getting an unexpected tax rebate, I was approaching my 60th birthday and thought: 'What do I do with the money? Do I spend it on a really nice holiday? Or do I buy something that's special?'
I saw a Bentley on eBay which I could afford so I bought it. I thought: "Why not?!"
I had it delivered without even looking at it. It's a 2004 Bentley GT Continental which I've since had customised so it's bright white with gold and has the words "Living The Dream" written on it.
Now I visit car shows across the country to try to give something back to others. I tell people my story and encourage people to talk about mental health.
I've appeared at about 50 car shows and spoken to hundreds of men and women. One person recently said they'd wished their son had spoken to me before he had taken his life.
People often can't talk to family members because they're too close. They need to talk to a stranger.
At car shows, guys open up and talk to me because they're relaxed in a different environment, away from everything.
I'm just thankful that my attempts to take my own life didn't work. I really feel now like I'm "living the dream".
Mr Turlin was speaking to David Mercer, news reporter.
:: Anyone feeling emotionally distressed or suicidal can call Samaritans for help on 116 123 or email [email protected] in the UK. In the US, call the Samaritans branch in your area or 1 (800) 273-TALK.